Wednesday, June 4, 2008

One

1 confession
  1. I cut myself last month for the first time in almost a year, but I promised someone I'd never do it again. I don't know if I can handle this.

2 comments:

816417 said...

Why? What can't you handle?
I hope you're okay.

The Asian said...

I broke down a few weeks ago. I couldn't stop crying. (My parents make it terribly hard for me to live with them, but I have no choice.) I'm usually fine after a few minutes, but I couldn't take it.

I started self-mutilating in 7th grade (I don't know if I've told you this), and I've been doing it since then. It's been almost a year since I've last cut myself, but I lost it on May 7th and ran a blade down my wrist. Thankfully, I talked to a friend, and she made me promise that I wouldn't self-harm ever again. I don't take promises lightly, so I swore to her I wouldn't do it again. She told me to call her if I'm ever in that situation again. However, I don't know if I can do this, if I can handle keeping that blade away. I'm doing okay now though. I'm just scared.