Six

6 things I wish I never did

1. I was too lazy to turn in scholarship applications in high school.
2. Lead him on like that.
3. Waited until the last minute to study for exams.
4. Let fear take over.
5. Jumped to conclusions.
6. Started self-mutilation.
   

Seven

7 things that cross my mind a lot

1. Where's my inspiration?
2. I suck at science.
3. I'm addicted to facebook.
4. I'm lonely.
5. I really need to find a job.
6. I need to work on my voice.
7. Am I supposed to be doing something?
   

Eight

8 ways to win my heart

1. Call me honey or sweetie. I think it's absolutely adorable.
2. Hold my hand no matter where we are.
3. If you see I'm struggling with something, offer to help me or at least give me some encouragement.
   
4. Write me something. A short poem works wonders.
5. Make me laugh.
6. If you tell me you're going to do something (like call or meet me somewhere), actually do it and be on time.
7. Smile, smile, smile!
8. Be genuine and sincere.
   

Nine

9 things about myself

1. I sometimes don't know my own strength.
2. I love the Nelson. I'd live there if I could and breathe in the art every moment of every day.
3. There's nothing like singing my heart out, hitting every note, and letting my emotions pour into every word. It's one of the best feelings in the world.
4. I'm not shy. I'm merely studying my prey.
5. My future's uncertain. I'm not making plans anymore.
   
6. I refuse to give up on love.
7. I would much rather wear a dress than a tuxedo. Actually, I would gladly wear a dress instead.
8. I think plaid shorts are (still) bombass.
9. I can't sleep without my ducky or bear.

Ten

I've seen these everywhere, especially on myspace, but I never got around to doing them. I finally gave in.

10 things I wish I could say to 10 different people

1. You're so adorable, and you make me happy. I'd still snuggle with you.
2. I never know if you're telling the truth. Please stop lying to me and to everyone else.
3. I'm afraid that once I let you go, I won't be able to write anymore. You're my muse.
4. I regret it.
5. Please stop trying to find love in every boy who shows the least bit of interest in you. You're starting to look desperate. You'll find love one day. Don't rush it.
6. I'm sorry for everything. You've been through enough.
7. I love you. Did you honestly mean it?
8. I don't know what I'll do if you get married to him. You two are perfect for each other, and I'm happy for you, but I don't know if I can handle it. It'll only mean I've missed my chance to be with you.
9. My lips are waiting.
10. We talk about sex waaaaaaay too much, and it makes me laugh.

Look For The Girl With The Broken Smile

I'm really excited about this week's blog on facebook, even though I'm the only one left posting them, which is kinda lame. Oh well.

I miss him. I need him. This makes me sad. If I don't see him soon, I'm going to cry.

I want to go back home. I want to visit soon. It's been almost 10 years since I've been back to the Philippines.

I don't know if I want to stop at a 4g. I'm pretty sure I'm addicted to the rush.

I'm going to sing my heart out at Saturday's party, and it's going to be great.

I've Got Front Row Tickets

...to watch my life go up in flames.

I'm on academic probation. If I don't get my GPA up, I'm kicked out of the School of Biological Sciences.

FUCK.

A Princess Seems Just My Type

Random thoughts for today.

1. Why is it so hard to find a girl who fits my standards?
2. Facebook is eating my soul.
3. That cheeseburger was delicious.
4. 36 minutes on the phone with Amy wasn't nearly enough time.
5. I'm glad my lobe is no longer seriously infected.
6. I need to pee.
7. What the heck was I thinking looking like that three years ago?!
8. I'm really nervous about playing at Kate's party.
9. My eyes itch.
10. I really want to cuddle.

If I Saw You In Heaven

I miss my grandpa. I wonder what Heaven's like.

I wonder if there even is a Heaven. I like to think there is.

I don't think I'll end up there though.

I hope he's okay.

I Gotta Feel You In My Bones Again

If I ever have a serious stroke, I don't think I can be happy again.

I hate the dentist. The entire right side of my face is numb.

Am I drooling?

Leave Me At The Front Door

I expect too much.

Under A Spell I Can't Break

Sometimes I tell myself to stop and think clearly. Most of the time it works.

I need to breathe.

Let's be realistic here.

Someone Else Before

Saturday was odd. I suddenly decided I don't want to spend the rest of my life (a good portion of it) working in some stuffy lab. Nope. I think I want to become a zoologist or something like that. I blame the Animal Exploration show. It sounds silly though, and I'm not entirely sure why.

I also decided I want to have kids one day. But only two at the most. Strange. I always said I'd NEVER have kids. But I want to give it a shot... as long as I'm not the one popping them out of my vajayjay.

Weeeeee.

Hurry Up And Wait

I just proved how impatient (not to mention idiotic) I am.

I went from a 10G to an 8G this afternoon, and there was no noticeable difference in size.

So.

I just tried shoving a 6G into my lobes, which are still adjusting to the minuscule change. Well, that hurt like a bum.

I should wait.

Fate Fell Short This Time

I have the tendency to mess things up. I think too much, then I end up saying the wrong thing.

I can't let it happen this time. I can't screw this up again.

These Streets Are Filled With Memories

I love it when she calls me honey.

I never understood how you could miss someone when you're sitting right next to them.

Until this morning.

If you only knew.

Sometimes...

I just want to be taken care of.

I'm Yours To Keep

1. I hate crying.
2. I blow bubbles when I'm really stressed out.
3. I wish my parents had me take piano lessons instead of swimming lessons when I was younger, but they couldn't afford it.
4. Most of the time, I gag when I'm really nervous. Or when I'm wiping gnarly butts.
5. I find girls more confusing than guys.
6. I want to move away where no one knows my name, but I shiver at the thought too.
7. I'm really affectionate. I just don't show it.
8. I don't think I'm a very good musician.
9. I have trust issues. You break a promise, you lose my trust.
10. I wish I were more outgoing. I've missed out on a lot of great things because I'm terribly shy.

Missing Puzzle Piece

It makes me sad when people give up on love. It's out there, I know it is. You have to go through a little (or a lot of) heartbreak to truly appreciate it. And It'll be worth it. Please don't lose hope.

If I die with my acoustic in hand and a song in my heart, serenading some unfortunate soul, so be it. I'm not giving up on love.

Tidal Waves Rip Right Through Me

Pick me up now
I need you so bad

I don't know why, but I'm in a bit of a funk. I'm not depressed or anything, just slightly disappointed. Maybe it's because of my allergies. Maybe it's because I found out today that I got a D in Histology. Maybe it's because Amy didn't bother telling me she was in town, when she knew I was waiting for an answer. Maybe it's because I don't know what I want to do with my life. Maybe it's just me.

Maybe.

I'll get over it soon.